AND WHAT ABOUT RESOLUTIONS?

Well, my resolutions were kind of thrown out of the window. There was so much I wanted to do and not do (like keeping up with this blog and not buying yarn…) and somehow it’s just not happening.
The blog thing I’m fixing now. The yarn thing will be harder.
So let’s recap quickly on what’s happened in this past month (and some) since my last post:
-I explored The Hague and visited the yarn shop there (again).
-I went to the beach (yes, in winter, yes, the north sea, yes it was windy cold but wonderfully sunny and nice to breath in a little sea breeze…)
-I was in Amsterdam and visited ‘Stephen and Penelope’ and didn’t do much else there.
-I got home and wanted to declutter my apartment and don’t know what else and basically just sat around knitting for a week?
-I might have been to the Edinburgh Yarn Festival… (pft, might. I was there and my backpack was considerably heavier on my way home…)
-There are some finished projects to document for my monthly review – which is now a two month review? Oops.

But in this instant here I’d really like to rave about something entirely else:
The Hedgehog Fiber Yarn Club.
I joined that on a whim while travelling and kind of forgot (or rather I put it out of my mind to quell the guilt at having so willingly ignored one of my resolutions?) I received the shipping notification on Wednesday, it shipped on Thursday and I pulled the package out of my letterbox on Saturday. Say what? While I live in Europe I’m not in the EU which usually makes quite a difference on the package border control. Usually that takes up a day or two or five. And I know that and don’t mind (why be annoyed when there is nothing you can do to change that? No, moving is not an option 😀 ) it feels absolutely luxurious to receive a package so fast and know I’m probably one of the first in that club to see the yarn. So cool.
I’m really excited for the next package and as I am very bad at keeping my resolutions I’m very much looking forward to the A Homespun House Harry Potter Yarn Club I will receive this month. Now I’ll have to weave in some ends and take some photos of my other finished objects so I can share my monthly review. I hope I don’t get too distracted with other things… (I cast on a sock yesterday and I’m just about to finish that, while there was other stuff I wanted to do it’s kind of awesome to say I knit a sock in a day, right?)
-With love, the queen of procrastination. (Prove to that? I wrote this post on the second of April and just forgot to post it… oops?)

p.s. for your enjoyment, a photo of one part of the duo of the cutest bunnys out there:

 

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Goals and stuff for the next year

In my last post I mentioned that I had knitting goals for this year and that I’d share them. I wanted to share these yesterday but I’ve been fighting with the automatic spellcheck in the WordPress app. Today it seems to accept what I’m typing better but yesterday everything got jumbled up. (I’ve googled where to shut that down or change the language to English but I wasn’t very successfull…)

Why did I want to share these goals yesterday? Because it was my birthday (I share my birthday with Luna – yes, that’s my nerd showing) and I’m the kind of person that starts to think about what I’m doing with my live and where I plan to go in the future. So I’ve got my knitting goals, some stash goals and some general goals. The first two kind of go together and the general goals basically consist of things that irk me and I want to change or stuff that I want to do. So here goes:

My knitting goals for 2017 are:

Knit 12 socks for myself

Have the gift knits ready one month early

Knit something big for at least every quarter of the year (two skeins or more)

Note down what I knit (Project notes, skeins and meterage)


Stash goals for the year:

Only buy yarn while travelling and only for specific projects

Keep track of stash

Use more yarn than I buy (more out than in)
I count the moment of payment as the moment of purchase. (I’m mentioning this because I bought yarn in December and that has not yet arrived…) The while travelling thing is because when I’m somewhere and would have the chance to get awesome yarn that I can’t get at home or would spend a good amount on shipping it’d be a shame not to get it. And yarn is a great souvenir. And there are some pretty great yarn stores I like to visit when I’m travelling.

General goals:

Be neater – I’m a very messy person but I don’t like that at all. Often I don’t really feel at home when there’s a mess so that needs to change.

Be more adventurous and outdoorsy – If it’s a nice day don’t sit at home and think about going out and regret it in the evening when I stayed in. Go out and do something.

Craft more. I’m really into knitting right now but I’d love to do other stuff as well. Looking at you sewing skills wasting away somewhere…

Learn how to make good coffee. I started drinking black coffee last year and I really like it but I’ve yet to master the art of brewing black coffee for myself and actually like it. Mostly it’s too strong or bitter… Practice makes perfect, right?

Get a tattoo. Doing that today. OMG. Can’t believe it. Wow. This has been strongly influenced by a friend, I’m staying with her right now and when I arrived she went ‘What are you going to do for your birthday? Are you getting a tattoo?’ And I was like ‘Oh.. Uhm. Yes?’ And the rest is history. (Disclaimer: I’ve known what tattoo I want to get for almost ten years and the spot has been decided on four or more years ago. I just never got one or did much of trying to get one because that was the last hurdle to take. She knows this. My decision was not forced or influenced in any way. Maybe only in the ‘finally do it’ kind of way. But I feel good about that.)
I think that’s it for the goals post. These have been decided on a while ago but putting them out there might make them more permanent? I don’t know.

I’ve already taken steps towards my goals, I have a Yarn tracking spreadsheet where I’ve put in most of the yarn in my stash. Or all of the recent ones that I know and love. And I’ve added those yarns to my Ravelry stash as well.  But there is quite a bit of stash that has not been added to the sheet mostly because I have no idea what the meterage and wool content is. But I’m working on those.
If you want to check out my projects or find me on Ravelry, my username is DajaWinter – I like to talk and am nice (I think) but I’m somewhat awkward with online interactions because I think too much about what the person on the other side might be thinking. Anyways.

Enjoy the sun and happy knitting!

Starting this blog…

Starting this blog I thought I’d just post about my yarn adventures, visits to yarn shops and stuff like that.

But I don’t actually visit all that many yarn shops. And as I work full time my knitting isn’t as fast as I’d like it to be. But right now, knitting is what keeps me going.

Starting this blog, I never intended to write rambling posts about what I’m doing, how I’m feeling what I ate that day or what sadness is eating at me. But somehow, that’s a way to remember the good days, the bad days and everything in between. And with the fast pace life is progressing, the year almost over again I have to cling to something. I need something to look back to and think ‘yes, that happened and that’s how I felt’ and not ‘I think that’s how I felt when something like that happened’.

Starting this blog I never thought I’d put something like this here: Tread carefully; this is a sad post about loss and appreciating your friends.

The past few days have been hard, I’ve slouched through my days with a heavy heart and I know it’s the season and the dreary weather. But I also know it’s because last year wasn’t a good one.

There were lots of changes, and I lost someone very dear to my heart. In medicine they say if you grief (are sad, unsocial, unmotivated, lose weight…) for longer than two weeks, you’re probably suffering from depression. A year on and there’s still a heavy weight on my heart and I don’t think it will ever go away.

I hope it will never go away.

Yes, it’s gotten easier and I’m not sad all the time but is the expectation really, that after two weeks it’s as if a person you loved dearly wasn’t just ripped from life? As if the person didn’t exist in the first place? That is completely ridiculous!

I want to remember my friend. Her laugh. Her sadness. Her stuttering when she tried to explain something we purposely misunderstood. I want to be sad thinking about what she missed. I want to see places in the world and think about how she would have loved that place. Always with a fondness in my heart. Certainly, linked with sadness but enjoying my life because there were so many things she wanted to do but did not get the chance to experience.

Two weeks ago we celebrated her birthday. She’d have turned 29 this year. There probably would have been jokes about how we’re looking forward to celebrating her 29th birthday again next year. Instead there were murmurs of memories, whispers of wishes.

L we love you and we remember you. I hope wherever you are is grand and you get to pity us for scrambling around on earth without you.

I’m not suffering from depression, I’m honouring a friend’s memory by remembering her and letting myself be sad for having lost someone amazing. And regretting not having told her enough how amazing she was. Feelings are not something we should hide. Not being able to smile shouldn’t be something that’s frowned upon.

I don’t have to feel bad for being sad. I don’t have to be embarrassed to still sit here and cry while writing this. I am proud to have known her and I am proud to admit that no, it’s not okay that she’s gone.

To everyone out there, appreciate the people around you and tell them how you feel about them and how fantastic they are.

 

 

P.s. Youtube knows my mood – sad music is my tune right now…